Quirk

It's awesome how everyone has their little quirks. Everyone is unique and has something different to give to the world. I know this sounds to cliche, but seriously, everyone of my friends brings something different to my life.

I was reminded what i loved about my Best friend last night. One thing I had forgotten was her love to quote movies, just like me. I forgot where I got my love of quoting from. It's one of those things that started all those years ago after watching "Uptown Girls" and "Napoleon Dynamite" and our favourite person to quote? Winnie the Pooh.

I love that one of my best friends (who is a guy) is so arty and fashionable and loves shopping more than me. I love that he buys me the best presents ever cos he knows the kind of fashion sense/style I have. I love that sometimes we think he could be gay because of the way he dresses and the things he talks about (but of course he's not).

I love that one of my best friends acts like my big brother. I love how he is this really dignified, righteous, upstanding, cool kinda guy when you first meet him.. until you realise that he actually makes really lame jokes. I love the way he's kinda protective too.

I love that one of my best friends who is older than me is sometimes like my little sister. I love that we can talk about anything, and I love her love of all things vintage and retro. I love how we can completely relate on all things to do with our families because theyre kind of the same. I love the way she cleans her room a billion times over jus so she doesn't have to start her homework!

I love that one of my closest friends grew up in Chille. I love his weird accent.

It's all these things about all these people that I love. Of course, there are many more, but I can't list them all. seriously, my life would be a bore without you guys.

In short, quirkiness doesn't always equal arty-dressed, nerd glasses wearing people. Quirkiness is present in all of us, and I guess it's these little things that we find we miss about each other.

we were so busy with our games, we forgot about the white rabbit

Don't make me fall in love again,
don't let your hand touch mine,
don't make that old familiar thrill
start tingling in my spine -
Don't make the nights rush by again
and all the days seem long -
don't fill my earth and sky again -
let one of us be strong.
Don't make me talk about you,
just to say your name aloud
or let my eyes betray me
when I see you in a crowd -
Don't make me fall in love again,
please let my heart decide
that this is just another game,
a roller coaster ride -
but who knows where a love begins
or how a game might end -
and maybe somewhere in between
I'll fall in love again . . . .

by Nan Witcomb,
from "The Thoughts of Nanushka"
Volume I, "Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow"

when she loved me

what do you say to someone who has stopped being in your life for a whole year after being there for you for four?

wisdom please God?
wisdom would be nice.

i would really really like to not screw this up. thanks.

Love one Another

i am continually amazed at how some bloggers (such as my cousin aaron) have so much time to blog so often. furthermore, how they manage to have so many epiphanies in their day to write about. like seriously, my life is not that interesting! anyhow, shout out to his blog, check it out :)
here. i promise no good morals and endless hours of procrastination as you browse through his amusing and very malaysian blog.

i just got home from church camp. this is my first avenue of processing so far. aside from all the fun things i got to do, such as slide down the 110 metre long water slide, canoeing and take a ride on the 130metre long flying fox, as well as trampolining and hanging out with the coolest kids in town (literal children).. i really felt God pulling me back to him.

it's a huge challenge to christians everywhere on how to live as a christian and be noticed for it. this camp taught us that by loving each other, we ensure that we are viewed as Jesus' disciples. i know one of the greatest things God challenged me on was the power of encouragement. so many times i forget to encourage others. also, i need to begin to defend others and not tear them down. loving one another goes beyond feeling, it is a commitment on our part, and a command that God has called us to obey. i know God truly placed certain people on my heart that i need to pray for, to love more, to respect more, to treat with more patience and gentleness.. the list is endless. oh i am so flawed.

though i wasn't in the adult sessions (i was helping out with sunday school), i really saw - through devotions and general conversations - that God is my Father, and i am a child of God. i am not an orphan, i belong somewhere. i do not need to seek aproval in anybody or in anything. by learning who i am in christ Jesus, and by abiding in Him, i assure a confidence and a faith in him that goes beyond any shallow acceptance this world can offer me.

"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that." - Michael Leuning

I know it can be hard to love some people, but through the grace of God, we can learn to see them through God's eyes. men, no matter how good or bad (and by the way, who are we to judge?), no matter how perfect or flawed are all made in God's image.

"So now i am giving you a new commandment: Love each other. Just as I have loved you, you should love each other. Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples." - John 13:34-35

so, i now have some praying to do.

stop right now, thank you very much.

it always sounds so petty when teenage girls complain they are fat, or dumb, or ugly or unfortunate. it always sounds so unbelievable when beautiful, smart people say they aren't good enough. it's like "we know you are so amazingly good looking, and we know you ace your studies even though you don't study, stop rubbing it in and making the rest of us feel even more inferior!" it's so easy to dimiss other people's comments about themselves, but when you begin to criticise yourself - your own looks, your own intelligence, your own capabilities, your own talents, your own body.. it's something entirely else. suddenly, you start believing you are fat or stupid or ugly or untalented or unfortunate, and that the rest of the world are all so much better off than you.. especially that amazingly tall, skinny, blonde haired, genius (ha ironic isnt it?). and now you begin to stop believing when people tell you you are actually beautiful or smart or fortunate.

so heres the simple remedy...
stop focusing on yourself.
stop thinking about your insecurities
stop focusing on your hair,teeth,nails,eyes,skintone,boobs,legs,arms...
stop defining yourself by what you received on that last SAC
stop thinking you aren't good enough.

and start helping others. switch the focus to other people. start complimenting that tall, skinny, blonde haired, genius girl you hate so much, start performing random acts of kindness for others.

and then you realised, it doesnt have to be about you, in fact, it never was about you.

now Danica, take your OWN advice.

and miles to go before i sleep

what a week.

my brain, body, soul are all drained. super drained.

i am out of emotions, i am out of smartness and out of tears..

thank God for that.

one thing i know for sure,

i'm not out of smiles.

good thing too.. i think i have to be happy tomorrow.

also,

i got all my wishes granted,

so how can i not be happy?

i got my perfume, my portrait lens and my birthday with family.

God is good...

...all the time.

Yee Yook Son

my grandfather passed away this morning at 7am malaysian time. he is now with his saviour jesus. he has passed from glory to glory.