who am i?

lately, ive been asking myself a lot of deep questions, big questions about life. it kinda makes me seem almost emo in that way i guess, but im sure there comes a point when everyone asks questions like these. "who am i?" or "who do i want to be?" or "who does God want me to be?" and much more questions like that are coming up. ive been asking God, seeking him more like about these questions. ive been frantically reading my bible, and pondering over these questions. ive never really had time to kinda stop and just THINK about these questions, which makes me really sad. is life just getting way too busy? i mean it seems like theres not even enough time to call friends and just catch up anymore.

im not saying we shouldnt have lots going on in our lives, these are OUR years, to be young and carefree and happy and have things happening in our lives, but are we just getting too caught up in study, in our lives to stop and think about where were heading in life in the first place? a teacher read us an essay that a guy wrote (i think he was in year 11 or something) and basically, a quick summary goes like this...

they were asked to write about what they think heaven is like. so, he ssaid something like, "i woke up and i was in a room full of files in filing cabinets. in the files, were everything about my life, every single detail, from girls i have liked, to music i have listened to, to times i have doubted God etc. i started pulling out a few files, and reading each card. i felt shame as well as guilt, horror and disgust at some of the things i'd done. i felt good and happy, and satisfied on the other hand at some of the other cards i'd read. then, there was a drawer marked, "people i have shared the gospel with". the drawer had a shining, golden handle, and i opened it. i was ashamed to find how little there was. then, i pulled out the seemingly huge file marked "tv shows i have watched" and i felt shame to see that i have wasted so much time watching all these shows." on each of the card, i noticed that my name was signed on them. each and every one. i began to cry and weep at my life. i thought, "no one must ever see this room! i must destroy all these files." just then, a man walked in, he began opening all the files, and signing every single card, signing his name over mine. then, after he'd signed every single card, he looked at me with pity, i started crying. that man was jesus. just then, i woke up."

it was something like that, except heaps longer. and yeah, it really got me thinking about what im doing with my life. (lol sorry, this blog is a little bit all over the place) and i think i should spend more time sharing the gospel about God, because (as travis said today in devotions...) all things we seem to value now will all fade away, why not we invest and value the things that will last forever?

we should take a step back, to seek God. to know where you are heading, and make sure you stay on the narrow path. dont fall off and go to the wide path, because it leads to death and destruction, but look to Jesus, and continue to walk on the narrow path, as it leads to life. be one of the few that finds this path. we should ask god about the bigger things in life, and take time to ponder over these things, dont get too caught up in life, and end up regretting things youve done.

btw, here is what was written on myspace a while ago, and i thought it was good, so ill post it up..

here is the truth.
we live in possibly the most confusing and complicated generation of all time. the Y generation. we are a generation deafened by the music on our i-pods, blisters from typing messages and glued to our computers. we are a generation who are absolutely and utterly addicted to cam whoring, entertainment and the media. while the world around is is screaming for help, we are too busy browsing through blogs and myspace profiles to realise. we make no effort to stop poverty, hunger and injustice around the world. in a world full of unmistaken identities, adults have labelled most of us too focused on our own insignificant lives to care. we must start to live in our lives, endure pain, hurt and suffering, find joy in our lives and in Christ, and make a difference in this world before we each have to leave it.

so yeah, think about that. and God Bless!

Lots of Love,
♥ danica xo