it seems like i blog once a week now haha. sorry everyone for not blogging for so long, i dno who still reads this but jerusha, isaac & adrienne, I LOVE YOU.
umm i'm in the office atm. i'm doing work experience this week at Tonya Hinde Interior Design. it's been awesome. i'm really loving it. i've been designing my bathroom cos my mum wants to renovate sometime in the next few years, so i've learnt how to draw up floor plans, elevations & sections on everything. woooo FUN.
lol nothing much else has been happening. i'm currently on holiday mode cos i've finished school this term. so i laugh at you all who still have one day ^^
i feel so independent lately cos i've been walking around the city & taking public transport myself =) lol gracie and me when i took the train at shakers.. haha good times. ANYWAY, i'm loving the smell and sight and sounds of degraves. it never ceases to smell of toasted foccacias. i love the graffiti and busy people constantly hurrying past degraves. i love the men & women in business suits out for lunch, and i love melbourne's quirky uniqueness. degraves sounds like people having fun, and the music playing from the cafes is always jazz.
nothing much to say, how boring am i ?? will blog more later.
ciao bloggers.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
a long awaited post
well,
lots has been happening, and as a result, my blog has been neglected somewhat - until now! so i'll just write about everything happening lately as i think of them...
i went to my friend sarah dickson's 16th birthday party on saturday (14/6/08). it was really fun. her brother (chris dickson) set up her garage with lcd tvs, karaoke machine etc. and that was cool, we danced & sang very LOUD all night! they also had a pinata which some of the people there tried to hit. getting high on softdrinks is so hardcore, almost as hardcore as drinking alcopops =) haha. well i saw david want & michael want there (my old neighbours back in bond st, ringwood) and also graham king (kid who went to oxley in year 7). good to catch up with friends and just have fun.
INTENSIVE rehearsals for our school musical, "fiddler on the roof" is well under-way in the music department. the band (strings + concert band) have been working tirelessly to learn and put together (with great skill might i add) - 36 pieces for this musical. i'm actually quite doubtful we will get it all together in time, but we'll see. it's basically three rehearsals a week (two band + one sectionals), for about 4-5 hours each rehearsal. oh stress..
i'm leading worship at church this sunday (come along to cornerstone!) for the first time in church (like i led at camp, but never before at church). i'm nervous, but mainly excited! i can't wait! i'm also sharing at church about my missions trip in january to thailand & cambodia next sunday as it's missions month this month. also, i'm planing a princess day for the girls at church on the holidays and i'm taking two sunday school lessons on the holidays, which is exciting! so, lots happening there.
God has really been challenging me to continue to support my parents in their ministry at cornerstone. this move hasnt been easy, and two and a half years later, i'm still suffering from feelings of regret, loneliness, disapointment, impatience and confusion about all this. i know God has a plan, but sometimes it's so hard to see past all the stuff hapening at church and focus on what really counts. i still feel like giving up at times on my youth group, mainly because it just doesnt feel like it's going anywhere. on sunday though, the speaker at our church (Dr. George Forbes) was sharing from Isaiah 60:
1 "Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the LORD rises upon you.
2 See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the LORD rises upon you and his glory appears over you.
3 Nations will come to your light, and kings to the brightness of your dawn.
4 "Lift up your eyes and look about you: All assemble and come to you; your sons come from afar, and your daughters are carried on the arm.
5 Then you will look and be radiant, your heart will throb and swell with joy; the wealth on the seas will be brought to you, to you the riches of the nations will come..."
so i was really encouraged and i felt like God was saying to me to "Arise and Shine" and to make a commitment to Him.
next week is work experience week which i'm really excited about. i'm working at Tonya Hide Interiors in the city. It's an interior designing place which my worship leader - Ed works at. when i'm there, i'll be designing our bathroom and finishing up a cafe - should be interesting!
SO YEAH! that's basically all that's been going on. the emo-ness in the previous entries have gone mainly because i havent had much time to think about any of it.
i'll leave you all with some pictures of sarah's party =)
HOLIDAYS COMING UP! o.0
lots has been happening, and as a result, my blog has been neglected somewhat - until now! so i'll just write about everything happening lately as i think of them...
i went to my friend sarah dickson's 16th birthday party on saturday (14/6/08). it was really fun. her brother (chris dickson) set up her garage with lcd tvs, karaoke machine etc. and that was cool, we danced & sang very LOUD all night! they also had a pinata which some of the people there tried to hit. getting high on softdrinks is so hardcore, almost as hardcore as drinking alcopops =) haha. well i saw david want & michael want there (my old neighbours back in bond st, ringwood) and also graham king (kid who went to oxley in year 7). good to catch up with friends and just have fun.
INTENSIVE rehearsals for our school musical, "fiddler on the roof" is well under-way in the music department. the band (strings + concert band) have been working tirelessly to learn and put together (with great skill might i add) - 36 pieces for this musical. i'm actually quite doubtful we will get it all together in time, but we'll see. it's basically three rehearsals a week (two band + one sectionals), for about 4-5 hours each rehearsal. oh stress..
i'm leading worship at church this sunday (come along to cornerstone!) for the first time in church (like i led at camp, but never before at church). i'm nervous, but mainly excited! i can't wait! i'm also sharing at church about my missions trip in january to thailand & cambodia next sunday as it's missions month this month. also, i'm planing a princess day for the girls at church on the holidays and i'm taking two sunday school lessons on the holidays, which is exciting! so, lots happening there.
God has really been challenging me to continue to support my parents in their ministry at cornerstone. this move hasnt been easy, and two and a half years later, i'm still suffering from feelings of regret, loneliness, disapointment, impatience and confusion about all this. i know God has a plan, but sometimes it's so hard to see past all the stuff hapening at church and focus on what really counts. i still feel like giving up at times on my youth group, mainly because it just doesnt feel like it's going anywhere. on sunday though, the speaker at our church (Dr. George Forbes) was sharing from Isaiah 60:
1 "Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the LORD rises upon you.
2 See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the LORD rises upon you and his glory appears over you.
3 Nations will come to your light, and kings to the brightness of your dawn.
4 "Lift up your eyes and look about you: All assemble and come to you; your sons come from afar, and your daughters are carried on the arm.
5 Then you will look and be radiant, your heart will throb and swell with joy; the wealth on the seas will be brought to you, to you the riches of the nations will come..."
so i was really encouraged and i felt like God was saying to me to "Arise and Shine" and to make a commitment to Him.
next week is work experience week which i'm really excited about. i'm working at Tonya Hide Interiors in the city. It's an interior designing place which my worship leader - Ed works at. when i'm there, i'll be designing our bathroom and finishing up a cafe - should be interesting!
SO YEAH! that's basically all that's been going on. the emo-ness in the previous entries have gone mainly because i havent had much time to think about any of it.
i'll leave you all with some pictures of sarah's party =)
HOLIDAYS COMING UP! o.0
Thursday, June 12, 2008
bludge days
this week (which is basically wednesday & today) is like getting-back-exams-finishing-semester 2-bludge week. so i've gotten back most of my exams and the results have been as expected - so i'm pretty happy about that.
yesterday we had our first lot of dance lessons for our formal. we learnt the jive + tango and it was so much fun! we did a progressive jive which means that you move around the circle as you dance. it was awesome! i can't wait until formal, it's going to be fun.
today we didn't do much, lol bludge days, but i had my very last photography lesson today and that was really sad cos i love my photography class so much! i wish there was vce photography at oxley, cos i would seriously consider doing it. so i mounted my triptych and reminisced with claire & mr lau about how far we've all come since that humble day we started photography last year in year 9... good times in that subject =)
we've done so many rehearsals for fiddler on the roof, our school production on this year. i'm playing violin in the band. it's so frustrating because we have to learn 20 over songs in like 8 weeks and no one ever pays attention in rehearsals! and i dont really have school tomorrow, but because of rehearsals, i have to go to school! ARGH..
anyway, i was just thinking today about how i seem to lose friends so often. it really frustrates me. i've never seem to be able to keep friends for very long or at least close friends for very long. it seems like it's God's way of keeping me dependent on Him. i feel like as soon as i've been friends with them, God says it's time to move on, and i almost always lose that friendship. it's hard cos i then have to start all over again. i just wish i could stay in one place long enough to keep friends.
yeah thats about it for now =)
im still missing my fungusses.
xo
yesterday we had our first lot of dance lessons for our formal. we learnt the jive + tango and it was so much fun! we did a progressive jive which means that you move around the circle as you dance. it was awesome! i can't wait until formal, it's going to be fun.
today we didn't do much, lol bludge days, but i had my very last photography lesson today and that was really sad cos i love my photography class so much! i wish there was vce photography at oxley, cos i would seriously consider doing it. so i mounted my triptych and reminisced with claire & mr lau about how far we've all come since that humble day we started photography last year in year 9... good times in that subject =)
we've done so many rehearsals for fiddler on the roof, our school production on this year. i'm playing violin in the band. it's so frustrating because we have to learn 20 over songs in like 8 weeks and no one ever pays attention in rehearsals! and i dont really have school tomorrow, but because of rehearsals, i have to go to school! ARGH..
anyway, i was just thinking today about how i seem to lose friends so often. it really frustrates me. i've never seem to be able to keep friends for very long or at least close friends for very long. it seems like it's God's way of keeping me dependent on Him. i feel like as soon as i've been friends with them, God says it's time to move on, and i almost always lose that friendship. it's hard cos i then have to start all over again. i just wish i could stay in one place long enough to keep friends.
yeah thats about it for now =)
im still missing my fungusses.
xo
Sunday, June 8, 2008
a long time away
oh i havent blogged in ages, i never thought people really read my blog, but isaac's message convinced me to. so much has happened since i last blogged, so i'll just go on about what has been happening now...
yesterday i went to a market in warrandyte. i saw so many young musicians there (all around my age) and i got re-inspired. the music they all played was so sincere and genuine and of themselves. they were playing to entertain. then i realised that i take my music for granted. music is art. art is meant to communicate feelings and emotions and thoughts to people that plain words cannot. somewhere along the way, i've stopped playing for me, or for an audience and began playing to get a certificate. there's a vast difference. somewhere, i've lost the artistic side of my music and got caught up in analysing the music too much. i know people who play music will understand that music is not just a sound - it's a voice.
also, i've not only been inspired musically, but have been so in photography. atm, i do year 10 photography and am enjoying it so much, it's the best subject, and our class has the funniest and most fun times in that darkroom. in oxley, we don't have vce photography but you can do visual art and fill your folio with photographs (it's not the same though). but anyway, i was browsing through myspaces and came across a guy called "Zaldy" who takes amazing photographs of the most simple things. (check out his myspace and see his pictures at; www.myspace.com/nodesignhere) he even quotes,
"To capture something real, the subject has to be immersed in something real. Such simplicity can include doodling on a piece of paper, riding a bike, watching the sun rise/set, up to the depthness of human connection - the love of parent for their child to the pain of losing someone. Alot of things need not require photographs to freeze them. But there are some moments that do. In our advancing world, it is easy to forget some things."
wow, one day when i own my own SLR, i hope to see everything in the world as art. with a camera in my hand, maybe i can capture the true emotions of everyday life.
anyway, enough deep arty stuff.
exams are over so i'm relieved, but lately i feel like i've been far from God and a lot of my friends, like i used exams as an excuse to push everyone out of the picture, i feel really bad. so today, at church, i told God and i said sorry. it's missions month and we had a speaker called, TT Quah to come and speak to us, and the main thing which hit me was when he said, "The highest expression of love for Christ is worship, the highest expression of worship is obedience, and the highest expression of obedience is evangelism." he also told us stories about how he and some russian pastors planted hundreds of churches in russia. he told us to dream big, silly dreams, cos God will use them. i realised at that point how great a God we serve. He is awesome! God has been doing some great things in my heart since this morning.
that's about it. i guess i'm still trying to fit in at church and school. it's weird, for the first time in my life, i didn't want to go to church this morning, not because of God or i thought it was boring or anything, but mainly the fact that i don't feel like i still fit in at church. i'm trying, and i wish i did fit in cos i know God put me there, but i can't. i feel so selfish sometimes.. like clearly God calling me there is not all about me. and i guess school's just weird, i don't feel like i can really find a few close friends, our "group" has just grown so big now, and it's so lonely sometimes.
i also attend a group at school called Chapel Champions, and they meet every second week (chapel champions are a select group of students from year 10-12) and plan school chapels as well as pray for our chapels, and hopefully, God will use us to bring our school chapels to the next level, and really grow some of the christians at our school.
so yeah, that's mainly stuff happening in my life now, so i'll leave you with some emo crap i wrote a week or so ago and blogged it on myspace, and i guess i still feel this way, but not as much anymore.
i can't believe it's happening all over again, but this time, i'm smarter; this time, i'm stronger. i want to run back to you, i wish you were there to tell me it was going to be ok all over again, but you're not. i wait all day to hear your voice, to hear you make a sound, maybe make me laugh, or make me cry, but there's nothing but silence. then there are moments we're together, but it's not the same anymore. you seemed to have moved on, you seem to not care, but my feet are glued to the ground. i want to walk away fast, but i can't. i need you to tell me if it's over. i wonder how long i'll be standing here. and now i feel so stupid because i saw the signs, and i thought maybe it'd be worth it. you meant everything you said - at the time. i did too. how come "i love you" became such a cliché between us? you were the only constant in my life, but now my world's slipping away without you. i wish i could hear your laugh again. i wish i could make you smile. i wish my hugs were what you looked forward to at the end of the day again, but now i'm not even making sense, i'm sure no one reads this stuff anyway, do they? i miss you.
God bless guys,
miss all the fungus people,
xo
yesterday i went to a market in warrandyte. i saw so many young musicians there (all around my age) and i got re-inspired. the music they all played was so sincere and genuine and of themselves. they were playing to entertain. then i realised that i take my music for granted. music is art. art is meant to communicate feelings and emotions and thoughts to people that plain words cannot. somewhere along the way, i've stopped playing for me, or for an audience and began playing to get a certificate. there's a vast difference. somewhere, i've lost the artistic side of my music and got caught up in analysing the music too much. i know people who play music will understand that music is not just a sound - it's a voice.
also, i've not only been inspired musically, but have been so in photography. atm, i do year 10 photography and am enjoying it so much, it's the best subject, and our class has the funniest and most fun times in that darkroom. in oxley, we don't have vce photography but you can do visual art and fill your folio with photographs (it's not the same though). but anyway, i was browsing through myspaces and came across a guy called "Zaldy" who takes amazing photographs of the most simple things. (check out his myspace and see his pictures at; www.myspace.com/nodesignhere) he even quotes,
"To capture something real, the subject has to be immersed in something real. Such simplicity can include doodling on a piece of paper, riding a bike, watching the sun rise/set, up to the depthness of human connection - the love of parent for their child to the pain of losing someone. Alot of things need not require photographs to freeze them. But there are some moments that do. In our advancing world, it is easy to forget some things."
wow, one day when i own my own SLR, i hope to see everything in the world as art. with a camera in my hand, maybe i can capture the true emotions of everyday life.
anyway, enough deep arty stuff.
exams are over so i'm relieved, but lately i feel like i've been far from God and a lot of my friends, like i used exams as an excuse to push everyone out of the picture, i feel really bad. so today, at church, i told God and i said sorry. it's missions month and we had a speaker called, TT Quah to come and speak to us, and the main thing which hit me was when he said, "The highest expression of love for Christ is worship, the highest expression of worship is obedience, and the highest expression of obedience is evangelism." he also told us stories about how he and some russian pastors planted hundreds of churches in russia. he told us to dream big, silly dreams, cos God will use them. i realised at that point how great a God we serve. He is awesome! God has been doing some great things in my heart since this morning.
that's about it. i guess i'm still trying to fit in at church and school. it's weird, for the first time in my life, i didn't want to go to church this morning, not because of God or i thought it was boring or anything, but mainly the fact that i don't feel like i still fit in at church. i'm trying, and i wish i did fit in cos i know God put me there, but i can't. i feel so selfish sometimes.. like clearly God calling me there is not all about me. and i guess school's just weird, i don't feel like i can really find a few close friends, our "group" has just grown so big now, and it's so lonely sometimes.
i also attend a group at school called Chapel Champions, and they meet every second week (chapel champions are a select group of students from year 10-12) and plan school chapels as well as pray for our chapels, and hopefully, God will use us to bring our school chapels to the next level, and really grow some of the christians at our school.
so yeah, that's mainly stuff happening in my life now, so i'll leave you with some emo crap i wrote a week or so ago and blogged it on myspace, and i guess i still feel this way, but not as much anymore.
i can't believe it's happening all over again, but this time, i'm smarter; this time, i'm stronger. i want to run back to you, i wish you were there to tell me it was going to be ok all over again, but you're not. i wait all day to hear your voice, to hear you make a sound, maybe make me laugh, or make me cry, but there's nothing but silence. then there are moments we're together, but it's not the same anymore. you seemed to have moved on, you seem to not care, but my feet are glued to the ground. i want to walk away fast, but i can't. i need you to tell me if it's over. i wonder how long i'll be standing here. and now i feel so stupid because i saw the signs, and i thought maybe it'd be worth it. you meant everything you said - at the time. i did too. how come "i love you" became such a cliché between us? you were the only constant in my life, but now my world's slipping away without you. i wish i could hear your laugh again. i wish i could make you smile. i wish my hugs were what you looked forward to at the end of the day again, but now i'm not even making sense, i'm sure no one reads this stuff anyway, do they? i miss you.
God bless guys,
miss all the fungus people,
xo
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