Merry (Almost) Christmas

Good evening great world wide web =)

it seems i have not blogged in quite a while and i probably should again. Mainly because facebook's photo upload function is currently not working on my computer and i'm beginning to get utterly frustrated. i've tried everything! so then i exercised my last option.. giving up !

A lot has transpired since the last time i blogged. Mainly things such as exams, presentation evening, rehearsals for presentation evening, a trip to Tasmania and getting my VCAA results for the first time.

For the moment though, i'm incredibly excited about these holidays. For those who have recently talked to me, they'll find this a surprise. yes, i complained about how i didnt get a summer job and how everybody is away blah -di-blah. i'm over it all. When we were in Tasmania, i read a lot of magazines. i mean A LOT. mostly 'belle' - an architecture, interior design magazine, 'frankie' - an art, culture, design & music magazine and lots of lifestyle ones too. so, i am currently inspired by design and crafty type things. i see these holidays as a time to develop my crafty skills. i have made some cards already and made elysia's christmas present (a smiggle pencilcase which i decorated). I am really looking forward to catching up with some friends i haven't kept much in contact with throughout this year like Amy. It'll be a great chance for me to as most of my closer friends are away (lucky people..bring me back presents :))

I am looking forward to spending some quality time with my piano (and violin) too. It's going to be a HUGE year in music and i better be prepared! There's Grade 8 piano, and hopefully Grade 6/7 Violin (or at least be up to that standard) and VCE Piano Solo Music Performance. It's so exciting !

I am nervous and excited about year twelve all at the same time. nervous because it's year twelve and from my experiences this year.. it's hard to score! Also, most of my subjects are arty subjects and there are so many people who are SO good at art! So i better work extra hard! Excited because we have the best year level after, the common room, tea and my subjects are great :)

I am sure going to also enjoy catching up on all my series. Glee, Gossip Girl, Gilmore Girls (wow so many G's) One Tree Hill, How I Met Your Mother and Big Bang Theory (especially since James comes back from Malaysia in the next week and can bring me up to speed with Big Bang!!!). Yeah, it's going to be quite a summer holiday.

So, catch you all up soon with how my summer actually goes.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! I'm sure God will continue to bless you all in the New Year and over this Christmas season. Embrace the love and joy going around!

undo

"to label me a prodigal would be only scratching the surface of who i've been known to be.
turn me around,
pick me up,
undo what i've become.
bring me back,
to the place
of forgiveness and grace.
i need you, need your help
i can't do this myself,
you're the only one,
who can undo what i've become." - undo, rush of fools

i always thought i could handle it, that i'd be strong enough, that when it came to it, i could say "no". i always though i'd never need to deal with it, i always thought i could turn my back, i thought i'd never even need to decide ever.

they tell us we need to say "no", we need to stand strong and wait, but they never said that it'd be this hard.

apart from all this thinking, the dilema still abounds - VCD or music next year?

and, exams are fast approaching. i want it to end, want it to go away!

hot and cold

two weeks ago, i was frying in 37 degree weather. now, i'm freezing. it's been a while since i've written. i missed you blog. just a tad.

where to start?
there was formal in august, then woolaning in september - the trip which changed my life. truly. it was amazing. then, now we're in october. exams are fast approaching and everything is happening at once.

these days, everyone is stressed. including my family. it's the time of the year when people start to give up - when it seems most crucial. second day back at school, and i received some bad news, music and VCD clash next year as subjects -.- they were my preference 1 and 2! so, it's one by distance ed or drop one. which is gay, cos both are my absolute utter favourite subjects. music has the best class and i've worked so hard to get here and VCD is what i need for a future in design! maybe God doesnt want me in design. its such a hard decision.

one hard decision after another..
God challenged me to put HIM first. above studies. that is SO hard, and i didn't even realise how hard it would be. but honestly, i always feel like praying and i'm excited to pray or to read my bible now which i havent been in a long long time.

living for God means dying to ourselves and living wholly for Him, it's such a simple concept, but boy is it hard.

and my discovery of today - my amuzement if you will - that music can elicit emotions within you. the fact that as we were analysing a piece in music for it's texture, we felt scared because the music was one that sounded like the soundtrack of a horor movie. then, music makes us laugh sometimes. i'm not sure if un-musical people see these details. but, i love my music performance class for allowing me to discover these little but profound things in life - such as this: that music can change your mood, it can make you feel something, or react a certain way, that in music, you don't need words - just the right notes, that silence is just as important as sound, and that without music ; i would be a very depressed little soul.

so all in all, life seems a blur lately, like i'm rushing through it all the time.
it's frustrating, stressful, fufilling, exciting, detailed, crazy...
but, in all things, no matter what happens, if i fail, the world will still spin and Jesus will still be Lord. i take comfort in that.

just for you

"And here I go,

Letting go

Just another,

let you go

I never thought I could be like this

I wanna spend every moment here with you

You've shown me a place I've seen but never knew

So here I am Here I am

Here I am

Here I am

Just for you" - William Tell, Just For You

"never forget me, cos if i thought you would, i'd never let you go.." - Winnie the pooh.

i miss you.

ben sherman

aren't these kids the cutest thing in the world?

i ♥ ben sherman shirts.

i feel inadequte beyond words

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.


-Marianne Williamson

let's go fungi, let's go!

wow three years has passed.

and just like that, the years blow by us as if it were just a passing gust of wind.

The Yellow Leaf - Isaac Ho

Summer's fading,
A chilling wind starts to blow.
As leaves start to fall,
So do friends come and go.

Trees grow proud,
As they boast crowns of gold.
But when that last leaf falls,
The trees shiver in cold.

You're like that last leaf,
So bright and full of cheer,
As time goes on,
We'll all miss you dear.

A youthful cheer's lost,
We all heave a sigh.
But we'll always remember,
The time you said "Goodbye".

now here we are, all those years later,

i miss you all.