Monday, October 27, 2008

calender

28th october
- adrienne's birthday
- cell group

29th october
- worship practice
- methods test

31st october
- violin lesson
- string rehearsal with band
- sanity orientation at wheeler's hill library

1st november
- work at new zealand natural (and resign) from 9-5.30

2nd november
- max brenners with tim
- dinner with the tans

3rd november & 4th november
- cup day and catch up on homework & study

6th november
- performing arts evening at school

7th november
- packing samaritans purse christmas shoeboxes with my homegroup

13th november
- violin exam

18th november
- methods exams; calculator free + calculator active

24th - 27th november
- year 10 exams

28th november
- correction day.. FREEDOM!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

the two collide


on the one hand, i am so full of joy and faith in God.

- after a phone call from a friend last week, i realised and learnt that God wanted me to just entrust all these things into his hands and commit it all to him. it's not my burden, it's HIS. i am just here to do his will and his work. and this morning, i simply worshipped him from the depths of my heart and i knew he listened. i have put my significance, security and worth in him - the one who will never fail me. he alone is my strength and my shield.

- before service today, i read psalm 37:


3 Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this:
6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.
7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.
8 Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil.

17 for the power of the wicked will be broken, but the LORD upholds the righteous.
18 The days of the blameless are known to the LORD, and their inheritance will endure forever.
19 In times of disaster they will not wither; in days of famine they will enjoy plenty.

23 If the LORD delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm;
24 though he stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand.

28 For the LORD loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones. They will be protected forever, but the offspring of the wicked will be cut off;

34 Wait for the LORD and keep his way. He will exalt you to inherit the land; when the wicked are cut off, you will see it.

39 The salvation of the righteous comes from the LORD; he is their stronghold in time of trouble.
40 The LORD helps them and delivers them; he delivers them from the wicked and saves them, because they take refuge in him.


on the other hand, i am so paranoid about exams.

- my violin teacher was telling me off for not practicing my scales enough after i told her i only do 10 minutes of scale practice each day. so today, i did one hour of practice (just scales!) and i hope i'm ready for my exam on the 13th of november.

- year 11 exam (methods) in 4 weeks, year 10 exams in 5 weeks. i just want them to come and finish already so i can stop being so paranoid about it all.


and so i am so confused about what i actually feel at the moment, because i really feel a billion things at once.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

yet again, a lot of thoughts have been circulating in my mind lately..

firstly, if you would actually like to know what that last blog post was about, ask me, it's just cos this is a public blog and i wouldnt wanna offend anyone. and its probably not what you think - but if you're thinking in terms of church... you're close!

secondly, i got a job at new zealand natural, but the boss is asian and so i'm a bit :S about the paying and stuff like that, so i just got a group interview with sanity on thursday night which i will probably start working for if i get the job!

today i had a good talk with a school friend of mine. i'm really beginning to see God raise up genuine christians in my school, and it's very exciting! today at chapel, rhiannon spoke about how we should not be afraid to be who we really are, and to stand up for whatever cause we believe in, not hide away - that we all have a voice, and we should use it - and i think that confirmed what God has been hinting at me for so long. me and sally are starting a lunchtime praise & worship & prayer thing soon so that should also be very exciting!

exams are getting closer and i have started revising for methods and realising with every single moment i'm revising that i am SO not ready! so i prayed and i prayed and asked God to help me, and i am studying hard already, so hopefully in the end it turns out ok :S

'anything you take with an SLR looks good.. like if you took a picture of a random flower with a digital camera it'd turn out crap but if it was with an SLR, it'd look so professional!' - claire. LOL. i was sharing with claire and EVERYBODY else at school after using uncle steven's SLR on saturday afternoon that i will be saving up for one no matter how long it takes! haha.. so we'll see how it goes.. in the mean time, here are some shots i took:


















more in facebook!

so all this week has been all about year 12's. monday was year 12's last assembly so they did this whole 'symbolic' thing of sticking their photos onto a giant book which was like leaving behind another chapter of their lives or something (which honestly was REALLY boring!) and then today was year 12's final chapel, so they ran it (which was great! sean law and rhiannon coates did awesome!) and tomorrow is year 12 last day - and its an oxley tradition which involves the likes of jumping castles and other inflatable playgrounds and a last assembly which they put on, and all day soccer, table tennis and basketball tournament which means no classes for us! but the thing i've been realising is how sad i would be if i was leaving. the people in my year level are like my second family cos i see them practically every day and it'll be so sad when we have to leave and probably not see each other as often or at all. and since our year level is really close, we all started reminiscing on our years together and getting all sentimental about when we'll be leaving. but anyway, i love my year level =)

so yeah thats about it. uhh.. im not so interesting atm. lol.
xoxo

Sunday, October 19, 2008

confused/frustrated


why is it that everytime i manage to fall flat on my face again? it's like i just learn to stand and then i stumble all over again. i finally accepted the way things were - with how and where God wanted me to be or do things, and suddenly, it gets ripped out from underneath my feet and all these doubts fill my mind. so many past frustrations begin to flood back in and i'm lost within my own thoughts and fears. i actually thought i'd dealt with all this before, i thought, 'yeah i can handle this' and yet as soon as it hit me, i had no will to try, no strength to fight back. i was crushed in my own ambitions and dreams, yet God was calling on me all along. i'm fighting back and forth with myself about whether i should follow Him or not and in the end i end up so confused i can't remember what i was trying to figure out in the first place. And as the time ticks by, i hardly get a chance to sit and smell the roses, so all i end up seeing is the weeds surrounding those roses because my head is so stuck to the ground that i can't look up. then i'm pretty sure i don't pretend to be someone i'm not but it's moments like these when i'm not so sure if this is who i really am or this is who i pretend to be when i need to cover up my frustrations.
and then i just end up confused...

Sunday, October 12, 2008

fruit salad



actually, this blog is not at all about fruit salad. i just called it that because it's a mix of everything.. like looking inside my head for the last few days...
while i was on the trip, i realised how much my parents left behind in malaysia just to come and fufill the call of God here in melbourne. as they met up with their old friends, i realised how hard it really is to live away from your home. i've always welcomed the idea of God calling me to the mission field or even just away from home, and yet, now that i think about it, i don't know so much if i'll ever be able to leave my family and friends and go to a country where i don't know anyone and start all over again.

this morning at church, rev. michael sim came to speak and though his message wasn't spectacular, God's presence was really there and i felt convicted to go up when my dad made an altar call. so, i went and i really felt God saying to me, "i'm what's missing in your life, stop replacing me with cheap imitations, you don't need friends or family to love you, you need me. stop looking to those and look to me. it's all about me. i'm here for you to come to anytime." i was really touched as i (for the first time ever in front of anyone!) kneeled before him in his presence. and now i'm really excited because i think God is preparing me for when he's going to call me to step out in faith for Him.

i'm still praying my youth group really opens up their hearts and lets God's fire engulf their hearts with his love, passion and zeal because until then, or youth group isn't going to grow much. i'm trying to be patient, but me being human, it's hard sometimes.

it's so refreshing to visit old friends and catch up. i am constantly amazed by how fast time blows by and before you know it, it's been years! and they're considered 'old friends'. i wish 'old friends' were ones you ALWAYS saw, but i guess time changes things and we all move our seperate ways, but with old friends, catching up is never awkward and it always feels like we've been together all along.

i gotta try try try harder in methods! ARGH my average was once A+ - A in semester one and now it's going downhill. i got 66% for my last test!!! i cannot wait to get maths over and done with next year so that i can do my arty stuff in year 12.

i'm so happy that shaun and gabriel got baptised yesterday! if i knew, i would've been there! i'm so glad that you guys have been faithful to God all these years, and it's been a pleasure seeing you guys grow and finally make a commitment like this to God and your peers.

for quite a while now, God has placed something in my heart for the kids at school. i really know that God has put me there to reach out to the people around me, but i don't know where to start, so i've been praying that God will give me opportunities where i can share him with others, and he has.

this year, i'm on a commitee at school called 'chapel champions' and basically, we plan chapels at our school. it's been great and i have really gotten excited and gotten others excited about chapels. it's cool to see the 'behind-the-scenes' of God's work in oxley.

also, last year, i was browsing through myspace profiles (back when myspace was the hip thing) and i came across a guy in my year level's. in the 'about me' section, he wrote a long-winded passage about how he doesn't believe in any God and how all religions are the same.... and basically, he's an atheist. he's not totally against the idea of God or a god, but he doesn't believe in one either. anyway, i started praying for him, and this year, he was in my photography class in semester one, my art class in semester two and my science class in semester two. so, i've been talking to him and about a month ago had a great conversation with him over msn in which i found out a lot about him and about his views on religion. i really believe he's searching and i've been praying for him ever since, hopefully as i continue to chat more with him at school, he'll open up more to God.

yeah thats it for now =)
for those from fungus / ex-fungus: really hoping i'll have the chance to catch up with you all soon cos i miss you all and i think i haven't seen any of you at least since shaun's birthday party!

xoxo

Monday, October 6, 2008

say Y-E-E

well, the dinner turned out to be great, but i have been incredibly tired the past few days - i still haven't gotten over jetlag yet. i need SLEEP!

my hair now has reddy brown highlights through it and its shorter than it was before. i hope oxley doesnt tell me off for my hair colour =S reunion was funny as always although we missed heaps of people - lem & mel & mikayla, david, elroi & anne - all weren't there. we straightened donny's hair and he looked like a girl, we joked, talked, and watched videos on youtube. we also took pictures =)

we visited canaan church sejatera - church i spent most of my childhood in, and dad preached. the band was 1/2 YEE and 3/4 somewhat related to YEE. it was good to see so many people again. i also met david's girlfriend. we went out for lunch with some of the board members.

we met aunty moon teng & uncle siong hoe and beatrice in the afternoon, then we had dinner with mum's side of the family.

i slept in this morning till 8 which was good, watched 'definitely, maybe' which was really bad and then practiced violin.

so uneventful =) i really miss melbourne though. i miss my friends =( like you guys...ALOT!

we leave for singapore tomorrow morning and then we stay in signapore for a day. we arrive back in melbourne on wednesday.

i am so FAT now =)

xoxo

Saturday, October 4, 2008

snapshots

have been so lazy ...
here are the pics!

disneyland 2
http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=60573&l=b11f1&id=752157455

san francisco
http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=60576&l=3a1ce&id=752157455

hollywood & LA
http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=60577&l=0713b&id=752157455

K.L - so far
http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=60579&l=570c2&id=752157455

Friday, October 3, 2008

sweat, open drains and char kuey teow

only two days have lapsed since i last wrote, so this can be detailed =)

yesterday, i woke up and did my quiet time. i really enjoyed my quiet time, i was just sharing and talking to God in a very relaxed manner, and it felt like talking to my best friend. it was so refreshing! then, i practiced violin, and then i finished my english 'to kill a mockingbird' text response essay. i then started 'definitely, maybe' but didn't finish it cos we went for lunch with my mum's family. my grandma, and two aunties (and families) were all there. jin boy and song boy are cuter than ever, and it was very .. different to a yee reunion.

then, i got dropped at sarah's house and we called everyone, but only david yeoh could come in the end. we went to watch 'mamma mia' which me and dave loved but sarah hated. it was really a feel-good movie. then, we dropped dave home and went for a tong shui dinner with amy & melissa hew in kepong. it was really great to catch up with them again!

i went back to sarah's and we watched the amazing race and MTV movie awards on TV. then, i went to sleep cos i was SOOOO dead tired.

we went for wonton mean this morning and then i got dropped home. we went out for lunch with the yeohs and had bah kut teh. then, went back to their house for a bit.

it is absolutely pouring at the moment.. i miss the huge rainfalls that we NEVER have in melbourne.

tonight we're going for dinner with aunty karen, uncle raymond, wesley and the chuas. i'm looking forward to catching up again. tomorrow i'm going to the hairdressers...FINALLLLLLYYY!!

and then YEE reunion tomorrow night.

wooo i'm so excited.
i miss you all, and i promise uploading of photos tomorrow =) i really CBS.
xoxo

Thursday, October 2, 2008

the many great exploits so far

hey all,
sorry for not blogging in ages. firstly, we didn't have free internet in L.A, then i just haven't had time (or been lazy!)

gilroy:
so we drove about an hour and a half to gilroy shopping outlets from san francisco. it was awesome! we bought so much, especially at GAP. i got jeans, tops, cardis, shoes..

san francisco --> L.A:
we drove from san francisco to LA through 'Yosemite National Park'. it was not nearly as great as we expected (mainly cos we all just wanetd to get to LA!!), but still beautiful. we finally arrived in LA at like 9.30 PM and checked in to our hotel.

konichiwa from the city of angels:
we stayed in 'kyoto grand' in little tokyo in LA. the hotel was pretty crap - fridge didn't work, no free internet, no free breakfast, small room, yucky bathroom.... so my parents complained and we got 2 days free buffet breaky - woohoo! lol. we explored LA city a bit more and went shopping at 'Citadel Outlets' near LA. i got jeans, and not much else.. we'd practically out-shopped ourselves at gilroy. we also spent a day catching public transport and visiting macy's and their shopping district (which to be honest was pretty crap, and cannot compare to bourke street mall whatsoever). and we had japanese fast food at 'yoshinoya' and it was yuck. and then we packed to go to the airport.

DELAYED FOR 18 HOURS:
we were SOOOO annoyed. cos we were all so ready to come back to malaysia.. but NO, they had to delay because of a typhoon in taipei (even though singapore airlines still flew to taipei!). they gave us a hotel room, and $7.50 worth of 'credit' for everyone for meals (which we weren't quite happy about because you can't get any food at a hotel for $7.50, so we had to pay extra). we were so hungry that we walked to burger king at midnight for food! me and elysia made full use of the hotel and went swimming!

arrived in KL:
finally, our plane took of and we made another stop over in taipei, and arrived in KL at 3.30AM on the 1/10/08. we were so tired when we got back to kuku susu's house. woke up that same morning very late, so we went for brunch with kuku susu, uncle kim ling, justine & sean. we had yong tau fu (my dad's favourite, though i'm not too keen). and then my cousin dave called and asked if i wanetd to catch a movie, so we all went to 1Utama and i met up with david, kuku ah voi & daniel. we went to watch 'eagle eye' which was pretty good except for the ending was really cliche, so it made it just good. then, i went back to dave's house and almost fell asleep. we had dinner with aunty kim moi, sarah, aunty peggy, aunty annie & jeremy. we went for crab =) and lalas and the authentic black hokkien mee (except it wasnt that good there). then, when i got home, my cousins keisha and serenity were here, so we had a girls sleepover with justine (10 years old), elysia (10), keisha (7), serenity (4).. complete with late night roti and ready anastacia in the dark. they kept me up all night and woke me up at 3AM, 5AM, 6.30 AM and finally 7 where i just gave up and woke up. they were all so cute!

today:
i'm going out for lunch with my mum's side of the family. then, getting dropped at sarah's house and meeting up with amy for dinner & a late movie or a movie and a late dinner. and then sleeping there.

so all up, i'm having a fantastic time, although i miss you all MUCHLY and i still have a dreaded english esay to do (which i think i should do now since i have nothing else to do atm anyway).

will blog and when i am not lazy anymore, i will upload pictures =) (that might take a while.)

but it's been great to reminisce on places i used to go when i was little and all that kinda stuff, as usual, i'm going to have a hard time leaving KL! family reunion on saturday night.. woohoo!

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love you all, miss you
xoxo