last first day ever

today i thought i was going to realise i was doomed to social death for the next nine months. instead, i find out it's more going to be a powerful but steady waterfall for the next nine months. that i can deal with. then i missed the memo that my day wasn't going to turn out at all what i thought i could deal with. then it hit me.. social death is real, and without dying this death, i cannot proceed to ace my studies. VCAA, you suck.

"for i know the plans i have for you"

it's going to be an exciting year.. i can feel it.
some very exciting happenings in the planning.
bring on 2010!

love is hard

you don't need to be so insecure. you really don't. because i think you're beautiful. i think there is some guy out there worth waiting for, who'll love the very things about you that you hate. why do you need to waste your time looking for more losers? why should you entrust your heart to somebody who is just going to break it? you are better than this.

the decisive moment

"Place de l'Europe" by Henri Cartier-Bresson.

"photography is not like painting. there is a creative fraction of a second when you are taking a picture. your eye must see a composition of an expression that life itself offers you, and you must know with intuition when to click the camera. that is the moment the photographer is creative. "oop! the moment!" once you miss it, it is gone forever"

- henri cartier-bresson

and judging by that photo, cartier-bresson certainly caught the moment.

tomorrow

"the sun'll come out, tomorrow" - annie

i love annie the musical. it's such a feel-good classic! orphan gets adopted by billionaire.. it's a dream come true!

tomorrow is the day my dad gets home, YAY! we all miss him very much. tomorrow is when things are escalating until they get back to normal - whatever normal is. tomorrow is the first day of my freedom from holiday homework.

this year leaves much to fear, much to question, much to learn, much to see, much to experience, and tomorrow is another part of this year.

i'm scared and excited all at the same time.. year twelve awaits.

These holidays...

...my nails have been four different colours
...i re-discovered my love for good design
...i read more magazines that i have in my lifetime
...i finished gilmore girls
...i have seen two movies at the cinemas
...i have not taken too many photographs
...the builders have been hard at work at my house
...i have seen my darling adrienne four times
...i have lived in different bedrooms for a month
...i have fallen in love with Chopin waltzes
...i have embroided a tshirt
...i have not touched my guitar
...i have practiced piano at least four times a week
...i have been procrastinating starting my vcd unit 3 folio just in case i stuff up
...i have talked more to my cousins away from KL than i normally would
...my grandfather gave his heart to Jesus
...i went to the beach twice
...i have felt happier than the whole of last year combined
...i have taken a break from being on the emotional rollercoaster
...i have taken to hanging out with people i never expected
...i have been looking for orange jewelery, but to no avail
...i went to the conservatory in crown for all-you-can-eat
...we went on a week long bludge trip which turned out to be exactly what we needed
...i have been hiding my fear of this coming year
...i have been savouring every moment
...i have taken to exercising :) not that i like it
...the song most stuck in my head was "Let's Dance To Joy Division" by the Wombats
...i decided to start a list of 'things to do after year 12'

...turned out quite different to what i expected. it's still not too late, two weeks of it left! then, then, my life ENDS!