Love one Another

i am continually amazed at how some bloggers (such as my cousin aaron) have so much time to blog so often. furthermore, how they manage to have so many epiphanies in their day to write about. like seriously, my life is not that interesting! anyhow, shout out to his blog, check it out :)
here. i promise no good morals and endless hours of procrastination as you browse through his amusing and very malaysian blog.

i just got home from church camp. this is my first avenue of processing so far. aside from all the fun things i got to do, such as slide down the 110 metre long water slide, canoeing and take a ride on the 130metre long flying fox, as well as trampolining and hanging out with the coolest kids in town (literal children).. i really felt God pulling me back to him.

it's a huge challenge to christians everywhere on how to live as a christian and be noticed for it. this camp taught us that by loving each other, we ensure that we are viewed as Jesus' disciples. i know one of the greatest things God challenged me on was the power of encouragement. so many times i forget to encourage others. also, i need to begin to defend others and not tear them down. loving one another goes beyond feeling, it is a commitment on our part, and a command that God has called us to obey. i know God truly placed certain people on my heart that i need to pray for, to love more, to respect more, to treat with more patience and gentleness.. the list is endless. oh i am so flawed.

though i wasn't in the adult sessions (i was helping out with sunday school), i really saw - through devotions and general conversations - that God is my Father, and i am a child of God. i am not an orphan, i belong somewhere. i do not need to seek aproval in anybody or in anything. by learning who i am in christ Jesus, and by abiding in Him, i assure a confidence and a faith in him that goes beyond any shallow acceptance this world can offer me.

"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that." - Michael Leuning

I know it can be hard to love some people, but through the grace of God, we can learn to see them through God's eyes. men, no matter how good or bad (and by the way, who are we to judge?), no matter how perfect or flawed are all made in God's image.

"So now i am giving you a new commandment: Love each other. Just as I have loved you, you should love each other. Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples." - John 13:34-35

so, i now have some praying to do.

stop right now, thank you very much.

it always sounds so petty when teenage girls complain they are fat, or dumb, or ugly or unfortunate. it always sounds so unbelievable when beautiful, smart people say they aren't good enough. it's like "we know you are so amazingly good looking, and we know you ace your studies even though you don't study, stop rubbing it in and making the rest of us feel even more inferior!" it's so easy to dimiss other people's comments about themselves, but when you begin to criticise yourself - your own looks, your own intelligence, your own capabilities, your own talents, your own body.. it's something entirely else. suddenly, you start believing you are fat or stupid or ugly or untalented or unfortunate, and that the rest of the world are all so much better off than you.. especially that amazingly tall, skinny, blonde haired, genius (ha ironic isnt it?). and now you begin to stop believing when people tell you you are actually beautiful or smart or fortunate.

so heres the simple remedy...
stop focusing on yourself.
stop thinking about your insecurities
stop focusing on your hair,teeth,nails,eyes,skintone,boobs,legs,arms...
stop defining yourself by what you received on that last SAC
stop thinking you aren't good enough.

and start helping others. switch the focus to other people. start complimenting that tall, skinny, blonde haired, genius girl you hate so much, start performing random acts of kindness for others.

and then you realised, it doesnt have to be about you, in fact, it never was about you.

now Danica, take your OWN advice.

and miles to go before i sleep

what a week.

my brain, body, soul are all drained. super drained.

i am out of emotions, i am out of smartness and out of tears..

thank God for that.

one thing i know for sure,

i'm not out of smiles.

good thing too.. i think i have to be happy tomorrow.

also,

i got all my wishes granted,

so how can i not be happy?

i got my perfume, my portrait lens and my birthday with family.

God is good...

...all the time.

Yee Yook Son

my grandfather passed away this morning at 7am malaysian time. he is now with his saviour jesus. he has passed from glory to glory.

John Piper and the Prosperity Gospel

all i want

hi everybody,
here is all i want for my birthday which is OVER.

1. Nikon 35mm f/1.8G AF-S DX Lens for Nikon Digital SLR Cameras
(for those of you who are camera illiterate, that's just a fixed portrait lens)
thanks elroi for giving me a loverrrly 50mm f1.8 lens.you are now officially my favourite cousin.


2. a gift voucher for chaddy
(thankyou to the fungusus for the $100 gift voucher last year. it has been amazing)

3. a year's subscription to frankie magazine


thank you.

Hold Me Now

God is sovereign.
He has everything under control even when the world feels like it's slipping away underneath me.

God is a tower of strength and shelter.
He can be strong when I have no strength left.

God is the prince of peace.
When I feel unsecure or unsafe, he comforts me with his love.

God is my best friend.
And he knew exactly what to tell me after leaving the hospital for the last time.

Hold Me Now - Hillsong

On that day when I see
All that you have for me
When I see you face to face
There surrounded by your grace

All my fear is swept away
in the light of your embrace
where you love is all I need
and forever Iam free

Where the streets are made of gold
In your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering
you hold me now, you hold me now
No darkness, no sick or lame
No hiding
you hold me now, you hold me now.

Crazy Cousins

since i last blogged, i have done a lot.

i spent thursday in the hospital with my dad, hau yang & kuku lili. i did lots of homework that day!

thursday to friday night i went for youth aflame's youth camp (just one night of it), and they stayed over at church. it was so much fun to catch up with all my childhood friends and cousins and meet new people. we played games, listened to preaching and played more games. ps. julia's team from Glad Tidings in PJ came to speak to us. the theme of the camp was 'touching lives' and ps. suwita mentioned that for us to touch lives we must first change our hearts. it was a great camp.

on friday we went to see my mum's dad - my ah kung, and visited my kung kung again. then, we took my mum's mum - my ah mah home from the hospital after her dialisis.

saturday we went shopping at sungei wang. i got my $7.50 burberry watch. i am now loving the UK shop - topshop, in pavillion, but it's super expensive! sat night was family reunion. it was so good to see family again.

sunday we took my ah kung & shannen & tyron to church - that was a miracle in itself! dad preached at my home church here - canaan sejatra. it was good to catch up with old family friends again. we went out for lunch (of course) to teck wah (of course) with the board (of course). we then went to visit the seows and my grandpa. we went to 'fatty crab' for dinner with the longs and the wongs. we also visited a pasar malam (night market) and i bought jay chou and david tao :)

monday i got a haircut :O lol. and then went to midvalley with mummy and elysia and then met hau yang and david to watch valentines day and eat ipoh chicken rice. then, with hau yang driving like a maniac, we drove to shah alam for dinner with the family.

tuesday was more hospitals and shopping. we had dinner with the tans at casa mila. and then, supper of curry mean at sri sina

wednesday we left at 2.45 pm after an early dim sum breaky with uncle tham song. we then drove to the hospital to see my kung kung. to our suprise, he had decided (after being very adamant against it) to accept jesus into his life. my dad reminded him time and time again that doing it for his kids will be meaningless, and he understood this. he accepted jesus and dad baptised him with sprinkling. it was one of the most amazing moments in my life, and i will remember it forever. we then said our final goodbyes.

we hopped on the plane and got home this morning at 3.30AM.

will blog later on deeper issues.